I love being with my boyfriend and everything, but I feel like I'm only going to his house all the time so that I can avoid eating. That's really bad. It's like I'm only with him for motivation.
Saying that, I have still devised a plan...
Have sex as much as possible, with me putting in the most effort, to lose as much weight as possible, as quickly as possible.
I feel so fat. When I'm at home I lose my control, and I hate that. I think I have made a negative association with food at my house. Anyway, I plan to remain out of the kitchen as much as possible. I have a bottle of squash up here, so I shall endeavor to only go downstairs in the morning, when I do not wish to eat anyway.
And, these weekly binges of about 1000 calories or less are getting ridiculous.. NO MORE.
Oh my God. His mum is a mental health nurse, and she has clocked on to my eating habits. She keeps mentioning it, and it's getting horribly uncomfortable. They're all "worried" about me. #fuckmylife
Anyway, I hope everyone is ok and everything. Sorry I haven't been on much.
Thanks for the love on my blog, dear. I've felt before that I was using my boyfriend (when I had one) just to keep away from food; I knew I wouldn't binge around him. It's a crappy feeling. Wish I had some advice for you, but all I can really say is I understand and I've been there.
ReplyDeleteThanks for your comment! I really loved the part about working out what career you really want. I definitely am adding that to my list. :)
ReplyDeleteHaha, I gotta say that I can identify with your current situation, and even if it's bad to say this, I like it. Good luck with your mum as well. At least if things get out of control, she will be there to really help you. Many girls don't have that.
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I'm this situation will work itself out, just hang in there.
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