Life.

Last night he told me that he was falling in love with me. This made me feel great, because I know that his feelings for me are the same as mine for him.

He told me a really big secret of his, and that made me feel really special. He thought that it would put me off him, but his courage to tell me made me even more happy that he was in my life.

At this point in my life, I am happier than I've ever been.

But, it's all going to crash down. 

I have to tell him about when happened to me a few months ago. Then he isn't going to want to be with me anymore, because I'm scared of having sex, and that's horrible.

He says that whatever it is, I can tell him and he'll help me. But, will he?
He says he's been through stuff too, which he will tell me about. But will it be as bad?

He's going to stop falling in love with me. But, he knows that I have a secret. So, now I have to tell him. And, I need to make him understand why I'm so scared. Why I break down when I see people who look like them. Why I get so depressed.

I told him to prepare himself for something very big. But it wasn't that long ago, either, so what if he can't get over it.

I am falling in love with him, and he feels the same. I'm just going to ruin everything. I'm going to break his heart, and hurt him, just like  I've done to anyone else that has ever cared about me.

I'm such a twat.