I made it a while...then I binged.

Sorry I haven't been on in a while - again! I have to stay away from home until late, so that I don't have to eat - to put it bluntly.

On Sunday, I hid my meat and my roast potatoes, and I ate my vegetables (so probably over 100 calories, but under 200 calories). I hid most of my dinner on monday, I had no meat, just vegetables, and left loads on the plate. So, I probably had about 100-150 calories (there was a spicy sauce on the vegetables, so you can't be sure really on calories). On Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't eat (Y). Yesterday, I binged (N). I think I consumed about 2,500 calories. I ate and ate and ate until I couldn't move, and I felt food in my throat. I think my stomach has shrunk, because I was full after eating a cookie. That was good, but I didn't listen to my body, I just wanted food.

Also, on Monday I went to a Zumba class, and everyday I walk 2.6 miles. So, I know I'm burning more than I'm eating most of the time.

My only concern is my A Levels. Exams are in less than 2 months, and all I can do is sit on my laptop doing barely anything. I struggle to concentrate on revision. But, it would be weak to stop now. I've only just started. Starting is the hardest part, I don't think I could do it again. I should never have recovered. It's just harder for me now, because I never brought up my calorie intake to a high enough number.

I have no idea what to cook tonight. Something hide-able, and we don't already have in the house, so that I'll have to walk to the supermarket to buy it.

Anyway, stay strong xx