Sorry I haven't been on in a while - again! I have to stay away from home until late, so that I don't have to eat - to put it bluntly.
On Sunday, I hid my meat and my roast potatoes, and I ate my vegetables (so probably over 100 calories, but under 200 calories). I hid most of my dinner on monday, I had no meat, just vegetables, and left loads on the plate. So, I probably had about 100-150 calories (there was a spicy sauce on the vegetables, so you can't be sure really on calories). On Tuesday and Wednesday I didn't eat (Y). Yesterday, I binged (N). I think I consumed about 2,500 calories. I ate and ate and ate until I couldn't move, and I felt food in my throat. I think my stomach has shrunk, because I was full after eating a cookie. That was good, but I didn't listen to my body, I just wanted food.
Also, on Monday I went to a Zumba class, and everyday I walk 2.6 miles. So, I know I'm burning more than I'm eating most of the time.
My only concern is my A Levels. Exams are in less than 2 months, and all I can do is sit on my laptop doing barely anything. I struggle to concentrate on revision. But, it would be weak to stop now. I've only just started. Starting is the hardest part, I don't think I could do it again. I should never have recovered. It's just harder for me now, because I never brought up my calorie intake to a high enough number.
I have no idea what to cook tonight. Something hide-able, and we don't already have in the house, so that I'll have to walk to the supermarket to buy it.
Anyway, stay strong xx
I always wanted to try a Zumba class. I've heard it's a great workout and it seems like so much fun!
ReplyDeleteI know how hard it is to get up the energy to study for big tests. My depression really gets in the way. Last semester I got all A's though so I guess it was all good. This semester I'm really struggling to do well in school. :( But on the positive I got a 96% on my test today!
I actually started my period today. Well really I think I'm more spotting than anything. It hasn't hit me full on yet. I wish it would have stayed away. My period just means I'm fat.
Sorry this was such a long comment. Love. <3