Tuesday, 3 April 2012
A little update
I haven't blogged in a while, and that's mainly because I've been to lazy to move!
I've had a couple of bad things happen recently, some family problems, etc. and that hasn't helped either. But yeah, I'm not on here to discuss family!!
I hope everyone else is fine.
My boyfriend still doesn't seem to care that I don't eat because of him. He makes me eat something like every other day. It's currently Tuesday and I haven't eaten since Saturday (which was half a plate of salad). As you can imagine, I get extremely faint when I stand up!! It's so worth it.
I started drinking fruit and herbal tea and squash to replace Pepsi Max and tea with milk, but I've ran out of both so I'll buy some more tomorrow. Also, it's extremely difficult, because that was where I got my energy from.
I passed out last weekend, and hit my head! My boyfriend seemed fairly un-phased by it. I think he just wants me to be really skinny, which is fair enough, because I want to be too. Don't get me wrong, he could be completely ok with my weight and actually be worried, but I doubt it. He talks about it like I'm being silly or something. I don't care what he thinks, as long as he likes the end result.
However, I did look in the mirror this morning, and saw my protruding shoulder/collar bone on my left shoulder, and that made me feel a little bit sick. I did talk myself out of that though, because bones are good. They show how hard I'm working and that it's paying off.
To be fair, I don't want to be boney, but I need to loose inches off my thighs, and if I have to get boney to do that, then it'll be worth it.
Also, it hurts when I sit on a hard floor, because my bum bones stick out a bit :D
Sorry about the sketchy-ness of this..
I also went to a gig on Sunday, with my boyfriend, and we saw You Me At Six. I exercised as much as I could, and my legs were a couple cm thinner the next morning (this is jumping, walking for about an hour in total, and then walking about 30 mins to get home the next morning (oh, and we stayed in a travel lodge, so I burned sexy-time calories!))
That's about all I can thik of. Sorry about length and stuff :s