I have had my mother and boyfriend tell me how much I am like my dad today. My dad is the person who is tearing the family apart, so as you can imagine I have been crying. My boyfriend hasn't even hugged me. He said "I haven't pissed you off have I?" And that was it.
Thoughts right now: I have no-one; I genuinely want to die.
I see no point in eating, breathing, or anything anymore. I really don't. I feel like everyone hates me. I hate myself for being so self-pitying. I hate the fact that I have to come on here to express myself - a place where I know no-one, because there's absolutely no-one who will ever understand how I feel.
This is why people hate me once they get to know me.. I'm depressing, and horrible and a twat. I don't even like myself, so how can people ever like me?
I feel the same way about myself sometimes too. I often tell new people that i meet that I'm a mean lil bitch and initially they laugh it off and then weeks later they tell me I was right. But it gets better. My best friend and are are lil twats together. Just hang in there, things will straighten out in time. And I doubt you and your father really have that much in common. Sometimes people say hurtful things just to be hurtful, not because they're true.
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