Wednesday, 4 May 2011

Last night

So I went out with that guy. He told me he wanted to do it again sometime. I got a hug.

Then today I was being all shy-ish, but after this PA show he sort of, well literally, ran off. I feel shit.

I've never felt like such a twat.

List of bad things:
 - failed driving test last wednesday
 - booked next driving test 1 day before A level exam
 - have exams starting in 2 weeks
 - man I like hates me
 - man who used me completely I'm still thinking about
 - I cannot look at myself without being repulsed
 - I just had an argument with my family, and now my phone won;t be fixed (yes, my iPhone is broken)

Good things:
 - I haven't eaten in 2 days.

That's all. Hope everyone is ok, its been a while.


  1. Good to hear from you again. :)
    I'm sure the guy left because he was shy around you. I'm sure if had nothing to do with your body/weight. He said he wanted to do it again. Take him up on that. It's good to be out there. Maybe you'll forget about the old boy.
    Stay safe not eating. (Please eat the day of the driver's exam!)

  2. Guys are weird creatures.
    If you happen to like this one, keep going for it.
    He probably ran away because he was nervous...
    And don't worry about a failed driving test -if it's bothering you at all. I know lots of people that didn't pass the first time; you can do it the next time 'round! :D
    What happened to your phone? (Sorry if you've already mentioned it before, my short-term memory is killer -in a bad way :P ) I've had mine a year-and-a-half and never had any problems with it. O:

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  3. Oh wow. That all sounds really tough. :( I'm sorry it seems that so much is going wrong! It really isn't fair. I truly hope that things start to look up for you. You don't deserve to feel bad, honestly.
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